holistikissim

You are in control

A winner is a loser who tried one more time

This is one of favourite quotes that seems to be from George Augustus Moore.

Just think about it. This means you never know how close to greatness, how close to success you are. This also means you just can’t give up.

A dream without a plan is just a wish. Another quote I really love. You just can’t keep on dreaming or you will be dreaming your life away.

Take that first step. Like I am doing while I am writing this. I have thought about talking about my experience as a junky and how I was able and capable of curing myself, of healing myself by doing simple actions. I started recording videos, writing stories on my website about 3 weeks ago. But I have been thinking about it for almost two years and I never had the courage to put myself out there because I was scared of the Internet trolls, to become a meme that everyone would make fun of. And now, I am fighting my fears because I really believe I have something to bring to the world.

Maybe I can help other junkies, maybe I can save others before they fall into that drug trap simply by telling my story. Maybe I can help families and friends that have junkies like me in their surroundings. You never know who you can touch with your actions, with your words, with your light.

Yes, I won’t lie, I also have a plan with all that. If I am being consistent, persistent, honest and opened with a real intention to help others, I wish that one day I could become a sort of coach or a motivational speaker but that is just so far from now that it seems that I am building castles in the air (in French “faire des plans sur la comète”) but without a plan, my dream is just a dream.

I know people are and will keep on making fun of me for having that dream. I am a dreamer and I have always been mocked for the crazy ideas I had and still have but without dreamers the world would be so far from what we have today.

As Gary Vaynerchuk said, when he was answering tweets 12 years ago to people publishing what wine they just tasted, he was building the foundations of the person he is today. This is exactly what I am doing today. He kept on doing so for years and years, every single night and never gave up. He was being consistent, disciplined and dedicated even if nothing was really coming out of it and then, well he was able to makes his father’s alcohol store a very successful online wine business: The Wine Library.

He tried, and tried again and tried some more and now, he is living the life he always dreamed of and on his way to finally buy the Jets. For the ones who do not know, he dreams of buying the Jets. It’s an American Football club in the US which might be worth billions. He is ON the way and not IN the way of his dreams. He was a loser until he tried once more and became a winner.

Keep on dreaming and do everything in your power to make them come true

What is blocking us from being the same? Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that we should pursue the same dreams or even taking the same path, we are all different. You are not him, I am not him so we just can’t be him. What I am saying is that, what is forbidding us from going after our goals like he is doing?

I think absolutely nothing except ourselves.

Rise past your failures, learn from them and improve your future. Improve your future by creating in your present. Build now. No one will do it for you so better doing it for yourself.

I have done so much shit stuff in my past, and I mean real shit stuff. Maybe nothing compared to some but I am sure I have been a complete fucked up guy for the majority of you guys. But now, I believe I define myself by the person I want to become with the appropriate actions of course, and not by the person I have been in the past and surely not by how others think about me.

I always thought I was stronger, clever, more intelligent than others, with a real destiny. I was judging others most of the time. I used to disguise it with humour but clearly I was just being an idiot, a real piece of sh** thinking I was better than others. And now…where I am? At the lowest point of my life. Well, not anymore. I was able to fight my depression and my super heavy addiction and being successful. So I have built strengths and a discipline that I never thought I’d ever have.

But, based on how I was imagining myself in the future when I was young, I am literally at the lowest point of my life. Maybe I had crazy expectations but those are still my dreams. I have no real job, I am back at my parents’, I am single, I have no savings nor money invested. But what I have today, is a disgust for the person I have been for years. I am fed up of being a coward, fed up for not doing things I want to do, fed up of not taking things into control and living my dreams, fed of the situation I am in.

I want more. I want to be more. I want to get more. I want to give more. I want to create more. I want to innovate more. I want to be more grateful. I want to help more. I want to bring up as much people as I can.

For now, I have taken another new step by telling my story. This is my new first step. And it is already a very big step for me. I am exposing myself to the world. Something I never thought I would do. I thought this part of me would be kept to myself. And here I am, telling you everything about me, about my thoughts, about my fears, about my dreams, about my screw-ups, about my plans…

I don’t know any of you guys, and still, I am opening myself up to you, for you to maybe relate on what I am saying. Maybe you will find strengths within my words and that they will help you to create and build your new self.

Don’t be afraid to get back up because no one will do it for you. Stop waiting for that perfect moment, there is none but the one you decide to help yourself.

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